5 Weeks

Yesterday I was officially 5 weeks pregnant.

That is one week closer to our ultrasound AND it means our baby is the size of an apple seed! :) It's heart, neural tube, and kidneys are forming this week - what an amazing miracle life is!

How am I feeling?

Well, besides nervous, anxious, and overly analytical...?

I am have sore/swollen boobs, I'm ridiculously tired, I'm bloated, always hungry, and I have lots of cramping and low back pain. I also have occasional sharp low pains in my groin. Everyone says this is normal stretching and growing of the uterus and the ligaments that hold it in place, so I am trying hard not to stress.

We got a few "firsts" this weekend. I bought our first book, "The Pregnancy Bible." My sister had already given me "What to Expect When You're Expecting" so I brushed off the dust and brought it out. Sherman and I have had fun reading what's going on together. And my mom and sister are already showering us in gifts. We have a boy outfit, a girl outfit, and my first Maternity outfit. They are so excited they just can't hold back.

Of course we are excited, but I can't help but hold back just a little. I am nervous. I don't want this to end. Trying to savor it all and soak up all the positivity around me and release this fear that has held me captive for far too long.